We had plans, i have never doubt about them a simple bit. But, i felt fear. I had and will put it in all which including future, money, faith and my future partner. Dont get me wrong but right now at this moment which im all alone by myself and i know every single one i knew are having their dinner for new year eve with their family, i felt fear. What if, i meant what if i loses them all?
Not long ago, someone i knew doubt about me, about my relationship, about me ending up with Daryl, makes me wonder if what they said is gonna come true, then all i left with is a diploma and my faith to God.
I used to be someone that separate all my eggs in all different baskets, which make me felt better and safer. Now i wont or at least i know i will not. Its not at if i dont have a choice but im ready to go for it, for myself, for Him, for the people that look down to me and for him. Right now i just wanna balance it because we will never know what will happen the right next second and order mcd's. the hungry~
ps: But nv give stupid reasons for not promising anything just because we wont know wat will happend tmr. Which remind me of my ex(which im not sure whether we were!)'s attitude! Lame.
Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year!
-her.
