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The Call by Regina Spektor

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and now one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger ans stronger
'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye


i might want to watch Narnia just for the sake of this song. ;p

Can i? May i? Will u?

im lost,
i need back up,
i need help,
i wanna be stronger,
but who cares?

i need an answer,
a clear one.
where is my graduates?
can i pay for it?

im lost,
help me at least
show me the way,
to love, to care, to seek, to hope.
to be who im truly am.

to love,
can i? may i? will u?

to care,
i will, will u?

to seek,
for the future, will u be there for me?
will u come along?

to hope,
for the day to come where u r totally mine.
where u are confident to say yes.






love is blind?
but my love, its have a pair of very sharp eyes with glasses.
counting me, hunting me down with my weakness... :S
i once tot i wanna find a man that really gonna accept who i am totally.
and i will try my best to be prefect.
its not easy at all.

i don recall counting hunting u down,
i could but i didnt want to.
because it is u.
i will change for the sake of u and God.
but i say, u really need to give me space and hope.
back me up will u?
walk me thru will u?
hold my hands will u?
pamper me will u?
love me will u?

or at least ..... don be too harsh on me.

WhatisBestfromGOD?

note:this post is totally emo and...ya emo. which all just came to mind to express. don have to bother.


i think i recall a song lyrics saying,
'...the person who love me the most, hurt me the most...'
in mandarin of coz.


greedy is the word i believe,
at least its how i feel now....
i can't just close one eye and go on,
but where is the thrust?


i know in my whole life i will never ever cheat on sumone!
not even thinking bout another person.


is it right to ask for more?
and try looking around and see whether 'the one' is actually another person?
how can a person falling in love with sumone and
probably wanna try out another person?
and turn back telling the gal, 'i think u r not the one which i was wrong at the first place. and now i found the one.'
where is loyalty?


isn't God will alway do what is best for us?



im amazed by everything!
and surprised that im ever this calm.
at the same thing, being hurt so bad.



yes, the answer is not here yet.
even still?
all these things didnt bother u?


u said u will alway end up hurting people arpund u.
but did u ever tried to make 'them' smile?

but remember i will not let go the bridge unless u let go, u said.









i tried to smile for u and i.
and i will smile for u.

myfriendReny.

i just reached home.
yes at 12.20am.

thanks Reny who fetched me back.
thank u so much!

Reny didnt told me that he was actually very sleepy!
and on the way sending me back,
on the road of LDP highway,
around kj.
theres alot of turning.
he almost crashed.
while turning, ya

but i was calmed enough,
and also trust him.
i didnt make any noise or alert him. ;p
where i just sit there and raise my eye brown,
and look to my right and see whether we will crash.
ok, i know this part aint funny, but God knows why i was that calm.

but i didnt know he was sleepy,
and out of sudden,
he slapped himself 3 times.
i was like,
'ni zok mo?' *the conversation below were all in mandarin*
'u didnt know i almost hit!? i fall asleep!!'
'....i know but wat i didnt know was u were very sleepy!'
'u shouldnt have fetch me back and let me know!'
and wat he replied i am not gonna mention here,
but its very nice of him to think for me like that!
once again, thank u!

Thank God, im safe home.
and same to him.

but even now, to flash back and writing this at the moment,
im not shaking or watever.
probably God himself was there that i know i have nth to worried.
except for Reny is not a bro.

and my loved one.

or probably my head was pack with stuffs to think of,
where i just go numb?

i have come to a decision where some of my friends has been worried.
yes, that is wat is it,
if u were to be close to me, u will know.
or u will find out some major chances in me or into my daily routine.
it is tough, but we will go thru it.

because i believe in our love!
some goes to u!
pls work hard on it!!
as i need to see u more!

but for it to happen right before my birthday is really hard!
we cant countdown together!! :(
*tears dropping soon :(*



ppl, pls do come find me out more often!
as im really stuck and bored and alone here!

or mayb i should go work more and then i can go shop til i drop!
:(
haiz,
i need more actives!!!!
where i hope he would be around too...




ps:my birthday is 6th of Oct. ;p

A Walk To Remember.

A Walk To Remember.

I'm glad most of my friends like this movie,
yes i know bout the romance, the beauty of love, the faith etc
but wat bother me is
i really hope they can see the msg, the faith between God and u, the hope we willing to wait, to understand everything is ok.

She change him so much, to a better person of coz.
and draw him back to God.

i can actually seeing this happening to me =)
really.


but another way round, God send him to me.
i'm glad.
now im back and is closer to God,
my mind set, my life, the smile on my face.
thank God.

London regretted missing all the time they had to be together,
me too but we didnt get to know each other back then.
i mean its really amazing to see how God works.
He could see us from up there,
meeting by, passes by, circles of friend click and go,
two straight lines crossing each other again and again,
till the day we are both ready.
the perfect moment for the right person. =)

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

when bubu brought this to me, i find it very familar.
but i couldn't recall, and i'm gald we both agree on that.
and of coz shame on myself i didnt came across to these verse before then.

it was in the book of Jamie's mom.
quite upset that they didnt mention where it was from.
yes, most of the ppl will know, but still and very sure that,
they are ppl who didn't know bout it.
and after watching i knew where actually i heard it!


'I'm sorry she never got her miracle.'
'She did.'
'It was you!'

i was me. =)

their love is like wind...they cant see it but they can feel it.
my love? Is to love u!



'i'm afraid of not being with u!'

all i need is to be with u forever!




p/s : after the move is end...i pause it when the cast appear..
and guess wat i found out?
Cynthia Carter, the mother of Landon Carter in the movie
real name is Daryl Hannah?? o.O
u must be kidding me!


and ah, im looking forward for the movie LICENSE TO WED by Mandy Moore releasing in 2 days time, story line based on Christianity again =) even tho they are using charismatic pastor
:S anyway,
this time im so gonna watch it with Daryl! ;]

Update bout Me back home since last three days...

well, im back home for holiday.
i brought Daryl back along too, to intro to my mom.
things went well, until he is back. Then my mom start whining :s
the whole mother thing....

home have change preetty alot...
will update the pictures soon..
no bluetooth n adapter there, so bear with me first yay, THX!


at first wasnt thinking of staying so many days, but can see that mom wants accompany..
just that she donno how to put it into words, or willing to tell me..
Daryl agree too.
i do miss her. for sure!
and for all 19 yrs i finally told her how i feel, but of coz lots more to talk bout.
thx to Daryl, he teach me how to manage our prob and cougere to face her. =)

told her that she shouldn't speak so harsh as i have my hard time dealing with her, and my way of speaking too.
since we kids keen to catch wat our parents does.
well, i learn to correct them from the hard way, to change for the better.
so i told her im changing for the better, she should put an effort to it too.
in return, silent.
yay as usual.

i learn to shared a part of the duty at home like clean the dishes since she cook =)
it's nice to be back home but.....
from time to time she still tells me all kind of stuff to shake my faith and believe...
how i hope she can be in my shoe.

and she keep thinking im staying till the weekend,
i will for her sake.
lets hope i can install more of my thots than her thots into mine. i pray!


and hope one day she will accept Daryl and understanding us, as in wat we are really into,
and how we seek in relationship and our future.

Lord, i pray for help!
after all, she my mom.

and give both of us strength to hold on!



Amen.

love me back.

Was watching 换换爱 ep1 by Rainie Yang Cheng Lin, Mike He Jun Xiang and Kingone Wang Chuan Yi.
thats a screen where Rainie's friend feed her her birthday cake, and she left cream at the corner of her lips...
my point is will u actually let it be, or let her know, or clean it for her...
its kinda annoying too right? talking to friend which having their mascara melt or eye shadow turn them into panda eyes...choco all over her lips...
i means its kinda rude not to let them know right? even tidy little.
imagine ur fren being make fun of just bcoz u didnt bother, and u're ok with it?

it might seen to be nth or not a big deal, but wat if they found out?
that u both had been walking along the mall for around at least 2 hr?
how would she fell? and think wat kind of a fren u are...
everyone wanna look nice thats of coz.

well, to be honest it hurts!!!
its can oso really seen to prove whether they really take u as fren...
but thank God my angelz dun do that, but of coz they re some that kept quite bout it...
which annoyed me totally! >=(
like wats frenship is for? .... =(



o well, talking bout friendship...
its been really a while seen i go out shopping or hang out with my galfrens...(don count yam cha)
but its not like we don want, its more like we cant....
due to transport, class time table, some working etc..
i know when its sth means alot to u, all these above doesnt matter...
we it seen like it is to some.... =(

like ying ying said she's been going out with pei (her coll fren) more often now then us...
bcoz pei can drive and her family have a car for her that can drive ying around...
then i answered back 'like i don wanna drive u aorund, but i cant drive!' 'ya, i know n that's y...'
i know she don mean it, but still it hurts me alot...
even her friendster primary pic is both of them, if its one of us then i might feel better... :(


*finally i talk bout her case, and in here, bcoz im sure she wont know ;p she don hav a com in her house...sorry ying no hard feeling yay. stil love u! for sure.*



from time to time, i think i'm quite useless...
nv been able to be here for anyone
even my mom said im the problem maker..
guess she's right, all i bring is prob etc...

even to darling, my frens, darling's mom n my mom of coz...
well bout darling's mom, which how i hope im not a gal
then she wont have the prob we sleeping together *pure sleeping together!*
nop, don get me wrong, im not complaining.. but i understand that she concern bout us
but she just wont know that we wont do anything against God's Will. for sure.
and thank God im still a gal, so its ok to fall for dear =)



wats my whole point?
all i wanna do or intend to do is to love every one around me, try my best even if im a trouble maker..
all i wanna do is to love and to be love back.

hold my hand and don let go