Today's sunset.

beautiful isn't?

well, so i should give credits to the painter.
My Heavenly Father.

:)

Took it Back.

yes i took it back.

The reason i took it back, it's simply because the entire public apology seems insincere enough to all of you and for some, it was interpreted as a lie.

Did any of u realize, if i don even bother bout u guys why should openly post a post and say sorry at the first place and let u guys comment? yes and again, i took the comments back. I strongly believe that you guys are very stressed up and having an emotional roller coaster.. it's expected that you might type things you don't mean at the moment. Furthermore, it's to avoid unwanted interpretations from the public towards all of us.

like one of u said, we went tru 4 months together.

But did any of u mind sharing ur problem or stress, to made myself a listener and a person to share my pain too?

We're supposed to be friends. Not just students who solely commit themselves to meetings and assignments, and do not relate anything else to each other.

I was being rather expressive recently. I felt that you guys will understand and help me out through this difficult phase in college. Day by day i tried to motivate myself to keep going and not cause a burden to others. After all, i didn't claim to be perfect, neither did i try act as if i'm perfect.

By the way, did any of u notice i having a hard time clicking with u guys? i tried my best to blend in and trust me, it was not an easy effort.

well, its all come back to blaming isnt it? i blame u, u blame me,and in the end, nothing's solved. Only more damage is dealt to both parties, i'm not the only one going through a tough time, because it's proven on your blogs, you all are equally going through a bitter and frustrated time. However, i did not even try to start pointing out each and every weaknesses you all have. I do believe you're going to claim urself as perfect?

Blaming can never solve problems. It only worsens the problem.

I did admit watever i did wrong, but please do not put words into my mouth, things i did not do or say .

I'm not here to be victimized and neither do i plan to be either.

but im disappointed as in u guys are the first group of ppl i mix with BUT i didnt expect them to cursing around, blaming ppl, short sighted.

College, is another phase of life. There bound to be miscommunication and conflicts, but I do believe that everybody agrees on treating these issues as adults/grown ups?

If it's desired that you guys want me to be less expressive, very well then, I'll just need to find other friends who are willing to accept and listen out to my problems. Friends who are willing to forgive over waiting for me for 1 hour and missed ONE meeting.

Sometimes, it's just hilarious when I look at it, you guys made it look as if it's a life and death matter. Anyhow, before you all leave anymore comments on my chatterbox, be wise with your words, it reflects on who you truly are.

Abusive words = abusive person
Bitter/filthy words = bitter and filthy person
"Lalala, i don't care whatever you say" words = childish person
Critical and constructive words = matured individual

I think you get the point.

May we resolve this issue as adults, God bless.

Huge Mistake!

+*edited*+

will get back soon. =]

Im so so so sorry.

weather changed. i got the news that u will need an operation. my heart beat stopped.
i asked myself why!? why didn't i took good care of u?!
he said "u will lose all ur memory but it is the cost to keep u alive."
tears dropped. all the memory will be erased but its okay. i will keep them in my heart.
its okay, after u recover i will take good care of u! i promise!

i love u! my laptop.



-her.

Giving it All.

It's Chinese New Year. Different is that this year i didnt went shopping because im broke. I didnt go any where because i have things to do. Different is i wont be getting any ang poa since im not visiting anyone. Different is I felt alone and i felt fear.

We had plans, i have never doubt about them a simple bit. But, i felt fear. I had and will put it in all which including future, money, faith and my future partner. Dont get me wrong but right now at this moment which im all alone by myself and i know every single one i knew are having their dinner for new year eve with their family, i felt fear. What if, i meant what if i loses them all?

Not long ago, someone i knew doubt about me, about my relationship, about me ending up with Daryl, makes me wonder if what they said is gonna come true, then all i left with is a diploma and my faith to God.

I used to be someone that separate all my eggs in all different baskets, which make me felt better and safer. Now i wont or at least i know i will not. Its not at if i dont have a choice but im ready to go for it, for myself, for Him, for the people that look down to me and for him. Right now i just wanna balance it because we will never know what will happen the right next second and order mcd's. the hungry~

ps: But nv give stupid reasons for not promising anything just because we wont know wat will happend tmr. Which remind me of my ex(which im not sure whether we were!)'s attitude! Lame.

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year!

-her.

The New Begining.

It's late right now, i'll be traveling tonight.
i might be able to catch up with u, or even see u again.
pls rmb all the good things happen around me and forget the bads.
i wish u all the best and God bless! as u meet ur new friend.
take care for me and say hi for me.
and always rmb to put on a big smile whenever he's around.









sender : 2007






yes, i have not been updating since 15th, after the Genting trip, after Evening of Carols, after The Birth of Christ - Christmas! , after moving back to Damansara, after New Year eve, and now im still stucked here with no connection at my new place when im blogging here at darling's place wishing all of u a Happy New Year!




God bless!

- her.

Lately.

sorry for being lost (vanishing) for so long.
if any of u noticed.

on the 27th/28th i went to Hanoi and Qui Ling for 7 days.
*pictures and details are coming...*

came back, the first thing is to see my darling.
settle down, unpack, give gifts, look for room etc.
and i finally settled finding my new room, 4 houses after zhee yuien's house.
thanks to dear's mom, she gave me the information.
and thank God it is a really nice house and room.
even tho i need to go settle bout the internet myself.
wonder why 3 working ladies no need to online meh?
yup, my future housemate are all OL (office ladies).

going to Genting on the 17th.
my first time going to a trip with frens.
don count the one day trip down to my home town with zy and the visit back home town for jasmine and kor.
sad right? even after spm my mom wont allow me to go any else where except for KL. =.=
and finally! this time with darling along! =)

for personal reasons we make it short.
3 days and 2 nights. and right after the trip i'll will be packing and moving back to damansara.
happy!!!
but i need to go buy a single size bed.
my queen size bed wont fix into the room. swt~ now i need to send it back to my mom.

so many things to be done in 4 days time.
need to go shopping for Genting, go to TOA and IACT, get used to the area.
and now this time i wont be staying near any shopping complex! :(

Kiara Park is near 1u, PJS9 is near Sunway Pyramid, Palm Spring is near IKEA, Ikano, The Curve and Tesco, Damansara Kim - none. got lah, Mini Market Gan. ;p

then dear was fetch me to the nearest 1u o. hehehe~

well now wat i wanna do is to surf IKEA's website to check for their bed.
and watch Da Qing Hou Gong, eat Snickers (have to buy something to brake the 50 note but bus ticket, $1!), play DS, call darling....

chocolate remind me of the sinful Secret Recipe's Chocolate Indulgence.
on the 10th its was their 10th anniversary. offer for buy 1 whole cake free 1 whole cake.
its was darling's mom birthday.
so they brought Chocolate Indulgence and White Chocolate Macadamia.
yet to try the white chocolate, but darling says its sweeter than usual. :(
how le how le? sinful chocolate indulgence and even sweeter white chocolate macadamia!
die!!!!


thanks for Kai Xian for fetching me back to sunway from Cathay.
we, Jane, Kai Xian, Gary, me and darling just watched the Warlords.
its the first time, i cried that bad for a movie and so many times!
Good show, and its really realistic!
many might not get it, but see the bigger picture, ok?
i have been watching alot of older age drama lately, after coming back from China.
leaving China was heart breaking! its my first time to China, and seeing my 'home town', where my root come from.
in the Movie they did mention a bit of Christianity.
its a good news that Gospel has finally reach back to China as people of China has totally forgotten bout it ever since the tale of buddha brought over from India.
if u have any comments about wat i just said, read this flash FIRST before leaving any. =) http://www.wbschool.org/Chinese.swf


anyway, i'll be real busy till New Year.
don hope to see anything much from me, till then. ;p

i will be a fresh grad and newbie all over again when coll starts.
lets pray all things will go well, for me, for people around me as we seek for hope and put our faith in Him!



take care!
Happy Hols to everyone!
God bless!

Reorganizing.

First of all, i wanna say sorry!
i know i have not been blogging for quite some time.
many things happened,
at the back of my head,
feelings and emotions,
tots and wonders,
sun shine and rain.


i will put myself together again, one day.
and reorganize what's in my head.



well, till then.
take care.

Who do I wanna prove to?

i know i suppose to post bout Rune Factory.
but this came up few days back.

a guy, close but not close enough voice out and kinda complain don i have any friends?
seeing the fact that he was a understanding fren and these words came out of his mouth.
i think more than once.
hurts me.

its not like i wanna stay alone.
stay at his house.
be at my bf's side.


wat can i say?
i wasn't blessed?
that my friends don have much time like his?
that my friends don stay around the neighborhood like his?
that my friends don stay in walking distance like his?
that my friends have all the freedom they want like his and him?


and of coz,
how i wish, we were all back in high school.
how i wish, we could all meet up like everyday.
how i wish, we were all single back then.
how i wish, all of us are students.
how i wish and how i wish.



that Jas come back from aus.
that Ying don stay in Old Klang.
that Dear stay at her auntie's house in Taman Sea.
that Yun is single and not working.
that Hui don study at KTAR so she don't have to move to Wangsa Maju.
that Foon is single.
that Cia hasnt move to Bukit Bintang.
that cc pang didnt move to Cheras.
that i don have to or didnt move to sunway all alone.
that i didnt mess up the friendship with my ex back in coll. so there will be not rumors bout me. everything will still be fine.




i told myself, li her don cry when u're typing this.
and YES! i didnt!
because they are in the pillow.
i hide them in the pillow yesterday, yesterday x2, yesterday x3. =)



he is not anyone that great that can make me cry for 3 days straight.
but come to think of i miss them so.




once darling said gonna buy me a cat.
i will nv forget how happy i was and start imaging how it will be to have a cat in my room.
jumping up and down. climb here and there.
so i won't be bored. it can teman me.
knowing that after class or part time job, it will be there at the door, welcome me home. =)
haha. but i know we both wont able to afford one yet.
and was kinda sad after knowing that it will happen much later. ;p
but i understand dear. i do, and thank u.




i was suppose to look for room in ss20.
but i didnt.
i was suppose to go see the coll.
but i didnt.

i kinda lose my focus.
Lord what should i do?
i left 1 and a half month.




im going to China on the 28th i think.
mom called to ask me to go.
the first time, i cried.
because she still don get it.
the effect that should put in to be the better.
and the role as a mother. to my sisters at least and her so called beloved daughters.
and the words she use. it felt so bad! pain, angry, sad and cried.
thank God darling was there for me.
and i sms my sis to reject her.


she called again, few days back.
with a softer tone.
but the fact that the reason she wants me to go.
its not because she wants me to go.
or mayb she didnt wanna sound that way. :(
giving me reasons she cant get back the money for my seat.
and keep mentioning this the last chance for me to go overseas and have fun.
why can't i? i can pay for myself in future. i repeated it.
this time she kept silent.
i think its because if she knows if she use the hard way, like i will listen.
because to darling, that is not even a reason to begin with.
and i have to pay?


fine, if she thinks i cant do any thing without her.
but anyhow i agree on going.
and PRAY hard that the trip is for the better.






before i end here.



do enjoy this, chill a little after reading this very/kinda emo post ya. ;]


new song lists added in,

• Natalie Grant - The Real Me. a Christian pop song. love it!
• Sick Puppies - All The Same. this is NOT the first time i mention it in my blog. i heart it! even the Heng's. =) after asking and REQUESTING for it to be played in their house. very ma fan ppl. introducing good stuff don wanna listen ;p still thinking of doing the Free Hugs Campaign.
• Linkin Park - Shadow Of The Day. if im not wrong, the latest song from them. Not bad.

will miss Elisha's Dancing and Kelly Clarkson's Sober.


and last but not least,
my Rune Factory Friend Code is 3179-4328-8092 .



Thank you and Good night. =)

My day on 17 Oct 07.

- its pretty looong, u can jump this over if u want. i just wanna note down some stuff which is important to me. peace. :) -


it was a really busy long day...
Daryl and i went for lucnh at Ming Tian @ Sunway.
and we bumped into Ean lolz
right after after lunch we were thinking of getting a hair cut near by,
and on our way getting out,
Daryl heard 'ogabuga....'
and thinking who will use Ean's joke...
but as we stop and have a look... hahaha
it was really him!

and we went to gallery to have a look at the transformer.
i bumped in to Jayson Ker and Fariz.
had a short talk with Fariz.
miss this guy so much la...
but he slimmed down d :(
i prefer him to be big big fat fat cute cute chubby chubby! ;p
so i told him to eat more!
and i told him that i gonna change college, mayb IACT in uptown.
and he kinda give me some encouragements! =)
saying that this college is really good in Advertising.
and will have more social life and less stressful life too! haha.

so i had my hair cut right after Daryl's,
while Ean came along with us.
this is how i looked.

so three of us went back to my place,
and wait for Li Hui to pick me up for our ladies meeting later.
so Daryl went back with Ean,
and i off to my ladies high tea with Ying and Hui.

while we were on the way to Sunway Pyramid (we went old klang to pick Ying)
Dear (Li Hui) told us that Wee Heng is really married, for sure.
during my birthday week (the day before my birthday),
i and Reny went and ask Him whether he is married,
and didnt gave us a notice or sth, but he said no.
i think for the reason he said no and kept quiet bout it is because
either his mom was there or the wedding dinner will be much later.

and while we were looking for car park,
due to the topic before it, the gals started talking bout bout
they will have no idea wat they will do if they got .....
'well, if u think u can keep then keep lo, if no we cant really do anything bout it...'
'yaloh, but its really scaring.... ppl around us do it safe.'
'but if take away, will have baby ghost one wo....' etc etc...
all the while i kept silent....
and finally when they are done, i said
'its not a problem at all.'
'ya for now how bout in the future?'
'by the time im married, theres nth to hide.'

and i started explaining bout how i think bout marrying and sex.
to me, its really holy!
i wanna do it in reverence of God and in regards of my brothers and sister-in-Christ!
and the church of coz.
and to me sex is when two person become one!
and before the topic was changed or they put their focus on car parks, i said
'i don wanna be so sui bian'

when ever i have my reasoning or i reason out the facts,
most i said MOST of my friends will go silent.
i really wonder do they ever think?
i mean, all the things we talk bout it is in them,
part of their life.
probably they knew wat was right and wrong and the facts.
they just couldn't be bother.....

but im glad two of them are doing fine now,
at least in relationship, works, mind set.
Dear wanna look up for short classes, but she needs to manger her time and money first!
Ying need to stay more positive!
other than that, nth much.
but Ying said that i should work on the relationship with my mom.
i was shocked!!! really amazed when she said that.
the reason she brought this up is because they were saying how much they wanna give a hand to take care their parent expertly mom.
but for her to know me well enough she should know i have try my best.
but! thank God Dear back me up!
because we has been keeping in touch alot!
while Ying Ying didnt even wanna show up on my birthday,
which is one of the reason i canceled the dinner (quite disappointed)and
until she got in the car and Dear hinted her and i can hear her 'AAH!' silently at the back....

ok back to the topic, if u know me well enough or u do follow up with my blog,
i tried my best to IMPROVED the relationship with her!
and stay positive of coz.....
but in return.... haiz... (can i say watever here? haizzz....)

and i roughly told them wat happen to my relationship,
and they were quite amazed how we do things, and think that far.
as we both wanna do wat is best for us and the future and God.
and Ying was saying in the car just now,
'Wow! u both really settled down ord ah?'
so funny!
and i told her 'in the beginning yes.'

so after high tea at Starbucks,
we went shopping! =)
and when we are shopping in SEED,
i heard sumone called my name out loud!
lolz, which sumone i didnt experted!
Sook Yee, along with Wee Seng (dark choco!) and Nic. (my ex classmate.)
and she said she finally see me after so long, and after hearing that im back. lol
but i told them bout my decision too.
its really nice seeing them too! =)
and i tried up some clothes,
and i bought this!

finally brought sth for myself! =)

gonna wear this on Sunday to church.
as i will try my best if i could i will wear or bring or use my new stuff in Sunday.

random shots, while shopping at Sunway Pyramid new wing
and found this. at first look i tot it was Big Apple...
hmmm... who has the copy right now?

and for dinner we went to Ole Ole Bali and give it a try.


i wasnt hungry some i didnt want any thing too heavy.
some i was thinking of trying some starters.
but Ying took my first choice. the salad.
so i took the Soto Soup.
and Dear took their Chicken Chop.

their meat (in Dear's and Ying's) taste like satay.
but Dear's much more juicy and Ying's much more dry.
mine is in soup form, so nth much but i enjoy the soup! =)
but their sauce is really good!
Dear got bbq sauce but in bali style, and Ying's is sour but not strong just nice.
*i didnt have flash light or better camare, so sorry.*

we like this,
ying and i were trying to save up.
so we didnt order any drinks, but they serve us this.
pretty impressive. =)

my chicken soup comes along with carrot and rice cake in it.

mayb next time i'll try their satay (huge satay) and steaks.

so my day pretty much like this.
and ya, we had a small gathering with Felicia's bro William, Ah Joe (Ying's bf) and Ah Joe's sis.
finally i have seen another side of her bf.
for them to be together after almost 2 yrs.
so Ying was trying to tell me,
this is how he is normally, but i ask her back.
then why when he is with us, he cannot be himself.
'because he is not close to u guys?'
'but he can make a diff and put on effort, like my bf?'
silent...... =.=
im not trying to brag, but seriously dont he care bout the other half of ur life?

and Ying went off with them, and Dear fetch me back.
and find out that i have been tagged by xiao mei.
and i'll do it asap ya..

ps: i see my preview and i think my colours sense suck! but i just wanna put the colours i think suit them best! haha their my frens anyway! ;]

Can i? May i? Will u?

im lost,
i need back up,
i need help,
i wanna be stronger,
but who cares?

i need an answer,
a clear one.
where is my graduates?
can i pay for it?

im lost,
help me at least
show me the way,
to love, to care, to seek, to hope.
to be who im truly am.

to love,
can i? may i? will u?

to care,
i will, will u?

to seek,
for the future, will u be there for me?
will u come along?

to hope,
for the day to come where u r totally mine.
where u are confident to say yes.






love is blind?
but my love, its have a pair of very sharp eyes with glasses.
counting me, hunting me down with my weakness... :S
i once tot i wanna find a man that really gonna accept who i am totally.
and i will try my best to be prefect.
its not easy at all.

i don recall counting hunting u down,
i could but i didnt want to.
because it is u.
i will change for the sake of u and God.
but i say, u really need to give me space and hope.
back me up will u?
walk me thru will u?
hold my hands will u?
pamper me will u?
love me will u?

or at least ..... don be too harsh on me.

WhatisBestfromGOD?

note:this post is totally emo and...ya emo. which all just came to mind to express. don have to bother.


i think i recall a song lyrics saying,
'...the person who love me the most, hurt me the most...'
in mandarin of coz.


greedy is the word i believe,
at least its how i feel now....
i can't just close one eye and go on,
but where is the thrust?


i know in my whole life i will never ever cheat on sumone!
not even thinking bout another person.


is it right to ask for more?
and try looking around and see whether 'the one' is actually another person?
how can a person falling in love with sumone and
probably wanna try out another person?
and turn back telling the gal, 'i think u r not the one which i was wrong at the first place. and now i found the one.'
where is loyalty?


isn't God will alway do what is best for us?



im amazed by everything!
and surprised that im ever this calm.
at the same thing, being hurt so bad.



yes, the answer is not here yet.
even still?
all these things didnt bother u?


u said u will alway end up hurting people arpund u.
but did u ever tried to make 'them' smile?

but remember i will not let go the bridge unless u let go, u said.









i tried to smile for u and i.
and i will smile for u.

myfriendReny.

i just reached home.
yes at 12.20am.

thanks Reny who fetched me back.
thank u so much!

Reny didnt told me that he was actually very sleepy!
and on the way sending me back,
on the road of LDP highway,
around kj.
theres alot of turning.
he almost crashed.
while turning, ya

but i was calmed enough,
and also trust him.
i didnt make any noise or alert him. ;p
where i just sit there and raise my eye brown,
and look to my right and see whether we will crash.
ok, i know this part aint funny, but God knows why i was that calm.

but i didnt know he was sleepy,
and out of sudden,
he slapped himself 3 times.
i was like,
'ni zok mo?' *the conversation below were all in mandarin*
'u didnt know i almost hit!? i fall asleep!!'
'....i know but wat i didnt know was u were very sleepy!'
'u shouldnt have fetch me back and let me know!'
and wat he replied i am not gonna mention here,
but its very nice of him to think for me like that!
once again, thank u!

Thank God, im safe home.
and same to him.

but even now, to flash back and writing this at the moment,
im not shaking or watever.
probably God himself was there that i know i have nth to worried.
except for Reny is not a bro.

and my loved one.

or probably my head was pack with stuffs to think of,
where i just go numb?

i have come to a decision where some of my friends has been worried.
yes, that is wat is it,
if u were to be close to me, u will know.
or u will find out some major chances in me or into my daily routine.
it is tough, but we will go thru it.

because i believe in our love!
some goes to u!
pls work hard on it!!
as i need to see u more!

but for it to happen right before my birthday is really hard!
we cant countdown together!! :(
*tears dropping soon :(*



ppl, pls do come find me out more often!
as im really stuck and bored and alone here!

or mayb i should go work more and then i can go shop til i drop!
:(
haiz,
i need more actives!!!!
where i hope he would be around too...




ps:my birthday is 6th of Oct. ;p

My Strawberries!

i totally miss my strawberries that i leave at bubu's house!
:(

i want my strawberries!!!! strawberries!!!! strawberries!!!! :(:(:(

and its not just some berry
but 3 full pack of strawberries!!!!!

well, it was cheap 3 pack for only ten rm. so y not?
i tried 2, not bad duh even from Camoren Highland when i take the bitter tea and the pasar mlm at ss2...

goodness, i didnt know it was that bad!!! yuak!
but thanks to my strawberries that i brought their so sweeeeett!

so i here without my berries, but with my final project and the last but not leat O.R kfc burger..
even still i still want my strawberries!!!! :(
all my fault, always forgetting stuff!
but thank God i still have nestle bliss mango with me...

but i hope my berries its still thr...coz always i shared food with bubu,and we leave it thr his family member will help me to finnish them up for me due to i'm not thr. which part of it, is still bubu's.
not that i mind but it can be quite disappointing when u're expecting sth and its not there....
especially food. and event or so ;p


but bubu did some testing with the berries to make some drink...
he added honey with my strawberries... hehe he'll make it for me when i'm thr tmr.


so i did some reseach on smoothie mayb we can make sth else too ;p


Lemon Berries Smoothies

1. 1 (8 ounce) container blueberry nonfat yogurt
2. 1 1/2 cups skim milk
3. 1 cup ice cubes
4. 1 cup fresh blueberries
5. 1 cup fresh strawberries
6. 1 teaspoon powdered lemonade mix

Nutrition Info: Per Serving

• Calories: 97 kcal
• Carbohydrates: 19 g
• Dietary Fiber: 1 g
• Fat: 0 g
• Protein: 5 g
• Sugars: 9 g

all u hav to do is place yogurt, milk, ice cubes, blueberries, strawberries, and lemonade mix in a blender. Pulse until smooth and creamy. 4 servings. =)

so easy and healty huh? hehe and next is


Strawberries Pink Lemonade

1. 1 tub CRYSTAL LIGHT Pink Lemonade Flavor Low Calorie Soft Drink
2. 7 cups cold water
3. 1 cup frozen strawberries, divided
4. Ice cubes

for this, place drink mix in plastic or glass pitcher. Add cold water; stir until drink mix is dissolved. then pour half of the prepared drink mix and half of the strawberries into blender; cover. Blend on high speed until smooth. Pour over ice cubes in tall glasses. Repeat with remaining prepared drink mix and strawberries.and here goes ur 8 servings. ^^


o ya did i mention i love lemonade too? yum~

just wanna get over with the final project and rush to bubu's place tmr after class and yum~ my berries and my bubu! then i'll be the happy gal of the day! ;)
o o mayb before i rush back to bubu's place i go get the cream from gaint first? good idea?
mayb with the chocolate too? then i'll b the happiest gal of the day! with my berries 'soak or dive' in the cream or chocolate (as i wish waohehehe *with the evil smile*) and bubu!




Happily Even After~




The End.

love me back.

Was watching 换换爱 ep1 by Rainie Yang Cheng Lin, Mike He Jun Xiang and Kingone Wang Chuan Yi.
thats a screen where Rainie's friend feed her her birthday cake, and she left cream at the corner of her lips...
my point is will u actually let it be, or let her know, or clean it for her...
its kinda annoying too right? talking to friend which having their mascara melt or eye shadow turn them into panda eyes...choco all over her lips...
i means its kinda rude not to let them know right? even tidy little.
imagine ur fren being make fun of just bcoz u didnt bother, and u're ok with it?

it might seen to be nth or not a big deal, but wat if they found out?
that u both had been walking along the mall for around at least 2 hr?
how would she fell? and think wat kind of a fren u are...
everyone wanna look nice thats of coz.

well, to be honest it hurts!!!
its can oso really seen to prove whether they really take u as fren...
but thank God my angelz dun do that, but of coz they re some that kept quite bout it...
which annoyed me totally! >=(
like wats frenship is for? .... =(



o well, talking bout friendship...
its been really a while seen i go out shopping or hang out with my galfrens...(don count yam cha)
but its not like we don want, its more like we cant....
due to transport, class time table, some working etc..
i know when its sth means alot to u, all these above doesnt matter...
we it seen like it is to some.... =(

like ying ying said she's been going out with pei (her coll fren) more often now then us...
bcoz pei can drive and her family have a car for her that can drive ying around...
then i answered back 'like i don wanna drive u aorund, but i cant drive!' 'ya, i know n that's y...'
i know she don mean it, but still it hurts me alot...
even her friendster primary pic is both of them, if its one of us then i might feel better... :(


*finally i talk bout her case, and in here, bcoz im sure she wont know ;p she don hav a com in her house...sorry ying no hard feeling yay. stil love u! for sure.*



from time to time, i think i'm quite useless...
nv been able to be here for anyone
even my mom said im the problem maker..
guess she's right, all i bring is prob etc...

even to darling, my frens, darling's mom n my mom of coz...
well bout darling's mom, which how i hope im not a gal
then she wont have the prob we sleeping together *pure sleeping together!*
nop, don get me wrong, im not complaining.. but i understand that she concern bout us
but she just wont know that we wont do anything against God's Will. for sure.
and thank God im still a gal, so its ok to fall for dear =)



wats my whole point?
all i wanna do or intend to do is to love every one around me, try my best even if im a trouble maker..
all i wanna do is to love and to be love back.

hold my hand and don let go

Love Letter 2

u have just left...i so gonna miss u! hope the rush hour 3 will work out!
its the first time i keep asking u to go dear...its not nice at all! felt very bad, but i know that we still have to consider about other stuff first before it comes to us, as he was right we're not together yet
as in really belong to each other *hope i wish*

like u said u gonna miss me! like im not, i replied.
well..i was kinda mad of myself :(
having the problem to cause all of it!
how i wish i was born normal...but i believe He has his own plans
thx to u and You Lord it all make senses! =)

yes tears will come and go,but it will only gonna make me stronger!

so glad u're on the bus now, ok as promise will go exercise after this is safe.

=)


*so after all the =) is more than :( right? it all make senses =) see? another one.*

xoxo.